WE - Journal 3, Topic A

"Well, what then? I'm waiting. Choose: the Operation and its hundred-percent happiness or..."
"I can't go on without you, I can't, I must not be without you," I said, or only thought it-- I don't know which-- but I-330 heard it.
"Yes, I know," she answered. And then, her hands still holding me by the shoulders, and her eyes not letting mine go: "In that case--until tomorrow. Tomorrow at twelve. Remember?"
"No. It's put off for one more day... The day after tomorrow..."
"Even better for us. At twelve. The day after tomorrow..."
I walked alone along the dusky street. The wind twirled, carrying and chasing me like a piece of paper. Fragments of cast-iron sky were flying down, flying down through infinity-- but they have a day or two to go... Oncoming unifs grazed against me but I walked alone. It was clear to me: everyone was saved, but there was to be no saving me, I don't want saving. (page 163)

I find this passage to be important because it is the first instance D-503 feels a distinct separation from the one state and understanding of its inherent issues. Before, D-503 acted out of obedience to whatever I-330 said out of love/desire for her, even when he had reservations about his actions. He is still thinking with the logical and precise manner of the One-State. Here, when forced to make a choice between his ideals/thoughts and his desire for I-330 he breaks down and realizes that he does not want to be a part of the society. I believe that he comes to the realization that the main problem with the one-state is that it devalues great portions of the human experience. While it provides happiness it ignores and blocks the rest of human emotions, (desire, sadness, creativity) and so, while he sees the value of the one-state and its "happiness" he understands that it is shallow and ultimately chooses to take a more organic, as well as more painful route.D-503 has shed himself of the mindset that has contained him throughout the novel and throughout his life, which is shown in Zamyatin's portrayal of the environment, near this point the book shifts describing the sky as calm and pristine with blue (representing the one-state) to a turbulent and violent mass (that mirrors his new emotional and turbulent style of thinking)